I have a stupid dream

I have been going in an out of depression. Even today it happened twice where I was “what am I doing with my life? I can’t do anything.”
Then I was “fuck you brain” and decided to draw fake bookcovers of some of my favorite children’s books.
I already have a nice little rough of what I want. I will start drawing it tonight and possibly do some color studies.
So fuck you brain, I’m tired of you making me feel useless. I will make myself happy with Hobbits and Chrestomanci and you can’t stop me!

Secret of Kells is inspiring to me and always puts a smile on my face.

But I was finally going through the Bonus features and noticed the early concept trailer called “Rebel” and it’s beautiful. The story’s the same, but the art is a bit different and the character designs (although it’s easy to tell who is who) are a different take on them.

It’s just nice to watch.

Go watch it.

I will have a food blogger on those food charts in the city that i always wanted to go to.

Just all the food.

I’m feeling a little better now, but I’m in the lost part of my mind again.

I just need to get back into drawing, get better, get out there and do things. I want to make a living off my art, it’s gonna be hard but I want to do it. I just need to start but I keep backing down.

I’m gonna watch Secret of Kells now.

It’s just weird. I’m not depressed or actually on the edge of depression but not there and probably won’t get there actually. 

I just feel lost.

Fuck it, I’m depressed as shit.